IALA x h-pem | my letter to the missed armenian
April 04, 2022 - October 02, 2022
“my letter to the missed armenian” is a moving elegy for a fallen Armenian soldier, maybe during the Artsakh conflict, whose slow dissolution moves the speaker toward lamentation. It is a gravepoem, a poem that describes how death unloosens the body bit by bit into disappearance. Impressively, the poem’s structure magnifies our perception of an impending absence. The large blank spaces that surround the poem and migrate into it, the gaps already floating inside some of the lines, the lack of punctuation and strict margins, all add to our sense of an emptiness taking hold. It’s as if the poem itself were dissipating, though not before startling us with its imagery and phrasing and heightening the possibilities of language. How unusual it is to describe a bloody death as “red ink” written on the grass; no one, perhaps, has described war as a “taunt ill”; and in one of the best passages of the poem, the speaker’s willingness to sacralize the soldier’s death takes an incantatory tone: “i’ll / sing your fingerprints / i’ll / publish a common book / and control the blasts of / blanched clouds.” It is a poem that locates the departures and absences that Armenians have historically endured squarely in the death of one Armenian soldier, the all residing in the one, the past merging into the present. Finally, this empathic communion between the then and the now which the speaker feels on the skin gives the poem a final hopeful tone: that the body returning to the earth seeds it for a second renewal, and all that has been left unsaid might appear again like a new flowering of words on the tongue.
Commentary provided by YAPA contest judge Gregory Djanikian.
read these words, follow
my words, my tongue
i’m sorry, so, so sorry
that my chants and money are of
that my laughing and heart are of
these cheap dreams, give the grass a red ink
i see a stranger wounding dour ankles
extending that pain through my veins to reach yours
unplucked stems are your legs, stuck in the mud
wasted, exhausted mud
give me your hands and
sing your fingerprints
publish a common book
and control the blasts of
can’t i fight this war?
can’t i defeat the taunt ill?
work until dawn, choke out the green smoke
stain your uniform with
a collapse of knives and servants
how unfortunate, a wife’s son given away
to the tide of mountained bodies
becoming another stubborn stranger
to the depths of another black hole
scattered like seeds, only your fingers
and i hear your message from miles away
what can i do?
Holy Martyrs Ferrahian High School
Granada Hills, CA
17 years old
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How can poetry serve as a bridge between Armenia and the over five million persons of full or partial Armenian ancestry living outside it today? What kinds of conversations might be necessary between Armenians and the world or across the diaspora itself?
Straight insights are not easy to come by. Yet, it’s fascinating to see how the young awardees dig deep into the topic and bring their own unique perspectives laced with symbolism, fantasy, and elegy. Fraught with the conflicts we all mediate internally, they guide us with empathy, love, and the hope of renewal.
Check out Semerdjian's whirling introduction to the 2022 YAPA below.
Follow the links in the article for a hauntingly beautiful poetic conversation we would all desire, especially during this critical and somber time in our history.
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Commentary provided by YAPA contest judge Armine Iknadossian
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Commentary provided by YAPA contest judge Raffi Joe Wartanian
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